Monday, March 23, 2009

thinking about how things have been-

the sap flowing like mad--flooding- then stopping and standing at a STAND STILL-- that's kind of like how i feel--
man, i felt it all in February- it was overwhelming, it was all flowing freely--then slowed down... but now and now in mid march, i am feeling it again.
you may have heard about the "skinny on the skinny" post-- it was all pretty bizarre and unusual, and it set off all sort of reactions-- one of which was my choice to remove the post from this blog--
while i hoped that folks would read it and be inspired by both benjy's and my generosity (in sharing our process-s), what actually happened was an overwhelming amount of feedback that has been very distracting-
for the last time (i hope), i will say again that kismet is not worried about competition-- our (sp and kismet) conversations previously posted was about getting to know each other... that's it....
and now that time has passed, and time does what it does (allows us to evolve), we all are able to settle in to what is what..
what is what?
love is in the air....
love me and i love you back
loving redhen ham and cheese croissants, loving so many things--
more later

Thursday, March 12, 2009

sap flowing

it was early when i got up this morning, still dark, and still snow on the ground..
it feels endless- and lately i have felt a bit overwhelmed by it- but when I unlocked the front door, and started putting together my prep list, i started getting really excited-
I remembered that joel had brought down a delivery of local beans from the north east kingdom (yellow eye, king of the early and jacobs cattle). And as I started pulling things out of the fridge to prep for the day, I came across the salad greens that Pete's Greens brought us yesterday (full of sunflower greens, tiny baby kale and little leaves of radish and lettuces-) sitting next to the absolutely fabulous greens from joe at screaming ridge- And though it doesn't feel like spring outside, i can see that it is close- i can taste it, literally- and it tastes good!

During my morning chores- making coffee, mixing crepe batter, melting chocolate- I kept thinking about this whole thing with the skinny pancake. I still feel kind of confused- i know that everything will work out as it needs to- i just feel distracted. I have been getting a bit of response about the post and the situation- unfortunately, quite a few of them have been very intense and from folks who have never been to kismet. I am questioning myself- maybe even doubting a bit- pausing when maybe i wish i were flowing-
and then, the sun is up- and it's warm and cozy and the tomatoes in my hand are ripe and meaty and juicy, and I am inlove.... and just like that, the sap starts flowing.